Hi all,
i have just started going through a depression and anxiety attacks. I think it is post natal depression because i have just had a baby who is now 6months. I suffered a mental breakdown and went to a phychiatrist and did counselling directly after the breakdown. I have tried meds but they dont go well with me so i am trying natural stuff. I am still experiencing anxiety attacks and just finding it a real struggle to manage it day by day. I feel like their is a cloud over me all the time. I went for a job interview for such a menial job, customer service role and i couldnt get it. I started feeling that i am never going to abe to cope with life anymore, life just became that much harder.
When i go through the depression or anxiety attack i think that their is no way out and life is really not worth living and yet i have 4 children that need me to stay strong. i want to live but i just cant seem to find any enjoyment in life, i do things because i have to, i get up because i need to for my baby... but most of the time i seem dazed or withdrawn within myself. My husband is emotionally not here and more concerened about his own feelings than anyone else. I cant talk to him about what i go through because he wouldnt understand. when i go through it i try to think of positive things for the future and where i want to be or go but sometimes its hard. I am also concerned about turning 40 this year, i feel like my life is ending before it began.. can anyone share experiences with me and what they did to ge through the day. I want to start on Amoryn can anyone share views on this as well.

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I can relate to you

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I can relate to you Dior28. I am 21 with three children. My last child was born in February and I have been suffering from what I think is postpartum depression since. I find myself feeling alone, guilty, angry and much more. I know that I need help but where I live there are not many resources and I do not have a vehicle to go to places that do have resources. I am tired but I can't sleep. My boyfriend doesn't understand me and I tell myself he doesn't want to. I can be happy one minute and the next minute I am sad or angry. I have pushed everyone away from me. I feel like I need someone to notice what is happening with me but no one says anything. I used to be an independent person but now I find myself being co-dependent and need someone there as a crutch but because I pushed everyone away there is no one there. I also feel as if my life is over. I can't do anything because I want to but because I have to. I am just trying to see if anyone could recommend something to me that I can do at home. Thanks

hi, sorry to hear about what your going through.. The hardest thing for me at first to do was to ask for help. I am a confident person also and thought i was literally going insane. I have learnt that i just needed to put my hand up and help was around me. I was refered to counselling immediately and didnt realise how helpful it was until i didnt have it. I have just been referred again to it because i felt like i needed it again. I am on antidepressants now and will monitor how i go with it. In the mist of my cloud i can sometimes see sunlight and when i do i am able to establish what i need to do to help me get through it. As far as having a remedy at home, and because you seem so isolated may be if you can call a help line to help you through, that was my first step was just calling a helpline. also deep breathing helped me and yoga. Not sure if you take time out from the kids but i know that when i go to my yoga classes i feel great when i come back to the family. I suggest that you do try and find help through your doctor. I hope this helps you. their is help out there you just got to ask for it. good luck. dior28

Hi SBrunet, I know a little how you feel. I too had 3 kids at 20 yrs. I'm also dealing with anziety and who knows what else. I.ll try to make this short, God knows I could write a book but I can't type well at all! Some days I feel like I there is no hope in my life. I'm now 43 and still have a 12 yr old and 3 grangchildren to care for.I worry about everyone in my family all day and I can't fix anything. My husband is impossibe and doesn't understand how I feel. But when you think all is lost just remember you have 3 people that are always there for you, your children. they will love you and they need you to be strong for them. I know it isn't easy, but you can do it. I also pray when I.m in the shower. I know he is listening. It helps to read about other situations and throw ideas around. good free theapy.
Just found a doc that is listening to me . She started me on celexa for anziety. I hope it helps.