Hello, I am hopeful. I am trying to be hopeful under the circumstances. I have been having anxiety attacks daily. It's started about a month ago. I been attending school on the weekends. Going back to school and having a family is not the easiest thing to do. I was doing it I was there to get learn I could have carried less about making friends. My family and I have scarifies so much for me to go back to school. Anyway to make a long story short. I was having trouble with one student in class. He was the bully in the classroom. He did what he wanted and got a way with it. Whatever. He crossed the line so many times. He crossed the line way to many time with me by touching me and when I would get upset he would laugh. So I spoke to my teacher in the pass about this jerk and the way he was with. I told her I didn't like. Well it was totally ignored. One day out of now where. He came up to me and gave me a hug. I felt so violated and felt my boundaries were crossed. After scream and telling him off. I got up and went to the restroom and cried. Before I was leaving he laughed like the devil and said he knew I would act this way. He pretty much did this on purpose. I felt embarrassed and humiliated in front of the other students that where there. I felt school and went home told my husband what happen. Anyway called the Dean of the school the next morning. Told here what happen and this wasn't the first time I told him not to touch me and not the first I had spoken to my teacher about this. I refused to go back to that class and be around people that think this behavior is okay. I was transferred to another class now I am attending the evening classes. 4 day a week from 6-11 pm. I thought by changing classes that the problem would take care of itself. Boy, I was wrong. I have been having anxiety attacks. I have three major anxiety attacks at school where I have been in tears. My husband is trying so hard to be understanding and supportive. He has no clue or what to say. I feel so alone and so defeated. I had to go to school this weekend to make a test I missed. Just being around the weekend class and seeing my old classmates who passed me like I wasn't there. I had anxiety attack during my best. This has been overwhelming and stressful. I am lost weight and my hair. My went from being on the President's list to not caring if I do well this last month. I have one week left of school. It feels like eternity for me. I also have to do my extern for 20 days. I just think I can do anything more at this point until I get the help I need to over come this. I have great friends and great support at home. No one can really understand until they have been in your shoes. Thank you so much for listening. I have been keeping this all inside. I just don't know who I can trust or were to go for help. I go to the doctor's tomorrow. I have to put my extern on hold do to my stress.
Your truly
Hopeful

Dear Hopeful,
I am very sorry you had to endure that kind of treatment, not only from the abuser but from the people you tried to get help from. It is unacceptable and although I don't know how to remedy anything for you, I just want to empathize and let you know that I'm sorry you are hurting and feeling so badly about all this. You are right, it is difficult for others to understand what you are going through, but not impossible. You never know how much something is going to hurt until it happens to you. I'm glad you have emotional support around you from your family. Stay with them and if you can, take some time off from the school, which I think I understood you are doing. I truly hope you can find ways to get rid of your panic attacks, it is an awful feeling to not know when you are going to freak out and lose control. You are on the right path. Don't let the bastards grind you down.
Yours in hopefulness,
Rose