my life has never been great, mum and dad spliting from one another and me just left helpless to where i wna be when i had to move to atherstone, near birmingham. and i wanted to always stay in oxford, and thinkgs always run in my head about what i could of done to change things in my life and feel most of it could of been my fault. and one day on June 2nd 2007 i spoke to a girl and i fell in love from the moment i saw her, but the problem was from the start was that she is from london and that is 150 miles away from me, t first it was a bit of fun so nothing was thouhgt about the future, but its been 9 half months now and i am wondering if i am suffering from depression, i have not been able to go out with mates, i ent eating or sleepin ok, i am feelin down a lot, i cry everyday, i have onli seen my girlfriend 5 days in the tym i hav knwon her, it really gets to me i don;t spend time with her, and i always think little things that are negative like if she actually loves me, because i like to spend time talking to her and she sees her friends at school and that and i get jelous cauuse i can;t do that, i feel left out and alone cauuse i want it to be me who is with her and i am always alone, i never felt so loved when i am with her, i need her so much and i want to be with herrr so badly everyday, i alwais feel dwn and bothered, i need help please

I am not qualified to truly answer your question. However, you seem like you are in pain and I would like to help. It appears that you are suffering from symptoms of depression. You should talk to someone you know and trust about your situation. I have suffered from depression for years and can say that I have experienced many of the symptoms that you talked about. It is not fun to feel like that. You should seek help. One of worst things about depression is the isolation. It is good to force yourself out. Go to your friends and talk to them. A trusted friend will listen and help you work through it. If you aren't sure who to turn to then seek professional help. IT can work wonders to discuss your problems with a qualified therapist. I hope this helps.

-Someone who cares