Hello Jenn,
I can totally relate. I am a very positive, outgoing person...athletic, career woman in my 30s. I had a major panic attack last year for the first time (plane landed, ambulance, the works)...and because I am a distance runner, thought it was something related to low blood sugar etc. Had terrible nausea, whole body shaking like seizure, etc
I went through a terrible couple of months after some major life changes (move across country, working from home, etc). It got so bad that I couldnt even drive more than 5 miles without feeling "what if I get a panic attack?!" -- I remember getting caught in traffic exit ramp when traffic was crawling, thinking, "just get me through."
During the day, I would just pray I would get through the day. I would start by just "getting to 10am, then noon, then 2pm, then 4" until my boyfriend arrived home after work.
I had the same stomach issues you do, lost 10 lbs (and I am thin to begin). Nothing sounded good and everything would just go right through me when I ate.
I am a big advocate of counseling. After one incidence where I felt like I had flu for 2 days and could not get out of bed, my counselor/physch. prescribed Fluoxetine (generic Prozac). I am not a fan of prescriptions and didnt want to "give in," but I tell you after about 3 1/2 weeks, one day I just felt this change....it had "kicked in."
I have only had one panic attack in about a year, triggered by having to stay by myself overnight. But all in all, I am feeling a TON better. With regard to the prescription, I do not feel like I am not "myself" -- I just dont get that flux feeling of panic setting in, the wave of physical symptoms of panic. I still have issues with staying alone at night, and travelling, but am embracing my fear and trying to work through it.
I felt alot better knowing this happens to more people than you realize. Its actually fairly common. You are not "going crazy"...once I told people I was having this issue, so they could be supportive...some others shard their similar experiences with me. You are definitely not alone.
For me, it helps when I stay busy. My mind tends to race, so it helps if I focus on doing something like a spreadsheet, work, reading (focus on words, do not think of other things, only the words on the page), anything with high concentration. I am even considering taking up crosstitch for a plane ride etc, just to have my mind fully engaged.
You family and friends will be more supportive than you realize. Accept this has happened to you, you are going to feel much better one day, and you just have to have a strategy/plan to get through these times. You will find a path to coping with this and feel better.
Sending positive energy to you!
QUOTE(jennjenn1019 @ Nov 10 2007, 09:13 AM)

im so scared to take these meds...i want to feel better but im terrified. i dont want to be "fake"..i feel like these pills are going to make me someone im not. i have the lexipro but i havent started it. Im just constantly thinking about this and i feel like im loosing my mind..im terrified that i am going crazy...when im not in a panic im just thinking too much. i try so hard the whole day to be normal that i wear myself out. mentally i feel drained. im loosing so much weight and i dont want to eat...i eat a little here and there but i have that nervous feeling in my belly all the time and i cant get hungry. i just want to feel like i did before this happened to me. i want to feel like i can drive to the store and not think about what if i get one. i hate this and i feel like i cant take it anymore...i feel like no one understands where i am coming from and im so scared... waht should i do?